Letting Go

Oh look at you! You are so beautiful! My have I missed you! Let's make an earnest effort to stay close.

I am finding myself having to let go of a lot of things in this new year. Purge. Interesting that what appears on the outside happens inside first. Since this is true, there is no wonder that my digestive system began the purging first. Or should I say my subconscious began the process in the form of a dream. Yes it's true. Before the actual act of purging happened, I had a very vivid dream of said act. Toilet overflowing and all! No, I am not trying to make you sick, but just trying to drive home the point that we create from the inside out. All that appears in our outer world is only a reflection of our thoughts.

As a result, I am finding that the things I am purging no longer serve me. Thoughts of lack, struggle, procrastination, fear, limitations, etc are all being left behind. They do not leaving willingly, let's be clear, however, what they are finding is that there is no longer room in my spirit for them. I have cleaned house. So there is no longer room for the above concepts to reside. I can feel clarity, faith, self-confidence, trust and focus move in. God knows I have put in the work. I have prayed, read, meditated and listened for the renewing of my mind. And it has been renewed. I am grateful.

So the final thing I had to purge was a false sense of security. Trust in my job, man, circumstances and conditions that had no foundation. God has brought me to a place where I totally lean on Him/Her. I must admit, this place is not for the faint of heart. It is for those who do not need to live by sight, nor who can easily be shaken. Just a few years ago, had I found myself here, I would have run back to the familiar. But this time. This time, I will hide myself under the wings of God. I will lean into god until we are one. I will close my eyes, put my hand in God's and walk confidently, faithfully, willingly, and joyfully down the path He/She leads me. this time, I will trust...unequivocally.

Until next time, take care of yourself and one another.

Peace, Love & Blessings,
Marina