The Storm Has Passed...At Least For Now...

What's happening my peoples!!!! Are you bout bout it ? Cool! Don't you just love black lingo! Know I do. And for those you that have a problem with my comment about "black lingo", please don't email me cause it's just my way of dancing thru life. Man oh woman!

Ya'll I'm here to tell you...unless you've come through a storm and had your faith tested, you don't have a clue what hope means. Once again, just my thoughts. Not trying to speak for anybody but Marina.

So the most recent storm in my life has passed, my faith has been tested, I'm up off my knees (at least for the moment), and you want to know what I've learned through the latest test...it's all good! Yes sir, I said it! It's all good! I can say that now, but if you had asked me a week ago how I felt about what I was going through, you mighta got hit by a few cuss words, and that's just keepin it real. I had my patience, faith, courage, pride, ego, and beliefs tested in this new storm. And as I was passing through, I was reading Jeremiah. God led me to it before the storm came. Wish I could tell ya'll my previous experiences, obstacles, trials, etc were enough to keep me grounded, but what I learned was that I have room to grow in my perfect and whole state. Yes I am perfect and whole right were I am cause God made me and He's got me, but at the same time, moving forward, if it's His will, I have room for growth. Ya'll don't hear me now!! So now that the sun has come out and I can see a little more clearly, I bless it all. I hope what I've learned this time will give me the strength to bear the next storm with a little more faith.

Going through my friends, I learned what it feels like to "feel" helpless, to perceive all your options exhausted, I learned what it means to lean, I learned what it feels like to want to walk away from the very thing that has kept you grounded, I learned what it's like to walk around in circles not sure what to do, I learned what it's like to cry for the sake of crying, I learned where I am and how I handle trials, I learned to let go and be OK with letting go, I learned that letting go doesn't mean nothing is happening. Yet at the same time (hallelujah) I learned I am strong, I learned God really does have my back even when it feels like He has walked away, I learned that sometimes you just have to "be" in the mess you make cause that's where you learn to "clean up" for yourself, I learned I have options, I learned I'm OK, I learned I have the tools to hang tight, I learned to take the good with the bad, I learned that if I can hold on long enough to make it to the other side, I'll see things a whole lot different and hopefully be able to bless it all. And that's why I say It's All Good!

Until next time, love yourself with the same vigor you love or want to be loved and then you'll feel loved! Man, I love this thing called life!

M